Day 51 - December 23rd

Day 51 – December 23rd
Phil's housewarming was awesome but this night began my insecure, worried feelings about almost everyone around me. Now I am fretful.
I passed out and someone drew on my face

        Phil had just moved into a new place and this night was his housewarming. I had a great chat with James (Brodie's brother) about how I thought I might have to break up with Rachel when I got back to Melbourne. She'd come back from her trip just in time for us to have one quick catch-up at my place before I left, but even after just that it was clear, if I was honest with myself, that I wasn't in it the same as I was before she left. I padded around Phil's backyard in the afternoon, thinking about what I'd have to do when I got back to Melboune. I drank by myself for the most part while everyone else was busy organising things for the party, making plans and calling people to see where they were at. I didn't want to wait.
        I was was tired from two days of partying, and at one point I passed out on a couch. When I woke up someone had drawn all over my face in black marker. I was feeling insecure after the gum thing, and took the drawing as another attempt at specifically and deliberately disrespecting me, so I got all upset and stumbled around the party asking people if they'd done it. Nobody knew anything.
        I was sure it was Brodie, but no one else seemed to care. I let it ruin my night, and went to sleep unfulfilled.

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