Day 10 - February 25th

Day 10 - February 25th
Not going back to reds for a long time if ever
Worse weekend ever
I must have taken acid or been given it because I don't remember dropping but I was defs tripping

        I'm always very sceptical of claims of drink spiking that don't involve anything but someone being more drunk or fucked up than they can accept they could have possibly been. If there's an element of assault in there, or if someone was passing out and vomiting then yeah, sure, that's a different thing altogether, but if someone just comes out with some shit like, “I felt so out of it last night and I only had x amount of drinks! I must have been spiked!!” Bullshit.
        Reading these cards has made me confront who I was in 2012 and I've found a lot of it pretty distasteful. When I read this card, I see myself as a 21 year old trying to explain away weird feelings with the only thing I knew anything about at that point: drugs. But who the fuck spikes drinks with acid at a nightclub? That doesn't even make sense.
        It's wild to me now that a young me would ever let himself believe something like this, because if someone told me now that the reason they were such a mess last night is because their drink was spiked with acid, I'd laugh right in their face. Pathetic. Assuming that weird feelings the previous night were down to some outside factor like acid is the epitome of childish blame-shifting. I couldn't deal with the fact that those weird feelings came from me, and I didn't want to examine what they were (guilt, probably, and I'll get to that later), so even when I wrote my private record of events on this card, I needed to blame it on something else.

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